Monday, 9 February 2015

More from the beginning

Blooody hell I wrote loads last night trying to get over Ebbw Vale's home defeat to Cross Keys, and then I managed to delete it all!!

Anyway, as I said, I bored a few people over Christmas and New Year but my arm was now swelling to the point where it was difficult to get my watch on.  I had also developed some lovely varicose veins on the front of my shoulder and chest.



So on returning to work on January 2nd I showed it to a colleague and we decided a further vascular doppler scan was necessary.  That didn't show any clot but suggested some sort of obstruction deeper to the area that could be scanned.
Next investigation was a CT scan with an injection to show up the blood vessels.  The injection is supposed to give you a sensation as if you've wet yourself but actually gave me quite a warm feeling down into my toes that wasn't unpleasant at all.  I have to say at this stage the worst thing I was expecting was to have a clot that would require blood-thinning injections and tablets.  I certainly wasn't expecting to be told that I had enlarged lymph nodes in my chest pressing on the main vein running from my left arm.  Even as an orthopaedic surgeon I remembered that stuff like that isn't normally very pleasant and no amount of googling told me any different.

Looking back I suppose I reacted to that news in a very 'surgical' way, by which I mean: lets find out whats wrong as soon as possible and get on and treat it.  By the end of the day I'd had: doppler scan; CT chest, abdomen and pelvis; MRI pelvis and biopsy of lymph nodes in my neck.  Thank God Id paid my national Insurance!
I was due to see an oncologist on Monday, lymphoma was top of the list as far as diagnosis

Velindre Cancer Centre is an amazing place.  Jam-packed full of patients but everything seems to just work.  However Im sitting there thinking "this is all wrong, I shouldn't be here".  I suspect that his is the view of almost everyone who comes here, after all its not a place that anyone wants to go to as a patient.  I think that this is something that the  staff all understand and it actually makes the whole experience a very positive one.

I discuss the likely diagnosis with the oncologist.  Lymphoma is top of the list but there are a few less common but not so nice ones brought up as well.  At this stage Im backing lymphoma, its a common cancer with a high cure rate and far better than some of the things we've discussed. Weirdly whilst Im there the results of the biopsy from the lymph nodes in my neck come back. These show CLL, Chronic Lymphocytic Leukaemia.  But it's thought that this is separate to whats going on in my chest and I need a biopsy of the lymph nodes in my chest.  Again 'surgical mode' switches on, I need this now!

Next an appointment to see the thoracic surgeon who will perform the biopsy.  If I didn't have any idea that something serious was going on before this appointment then I was in no doubt after!! I was just glad I wasn't some little old lady who thought she might have a bit of an infection!
Just to say that the surgeon I saw was from Eastern Europe and his communication skills weren't the best.  He asked me to describe what was happening so I told him about my arm and having the scans etc and he said to me "and that's when they found the nasty cancer"!!
Anyway he did a technically good job with some impressive shark bites on my chest.  Diagnosis back: Diffuse Large B Cell Lymphoma.
As Ive said I was quite relieved with that diagnosis in the end! Mind you, leukaemia and lymphoma??!! I must have been really bad in a previous life!!

Saturday, 7 February 2015

Back to the Beginning

Back to the beginning.
 I first noticed something was wrong on the Sunday before Christmas.  After having a shower in the morning I noticed that my left arm was red and all my veins were very prominent (I said my arm!!). I thought I must have been standing with my left side under the hot shower rather than my right so waited for about 10 minutes.  Looked in the mirror, still the same.  The first thing that came to mind was that I had a clot in the main (subclavian) vein, not common but not really rare.
So like every other doctor, rather than asking a colleague to have a look and give an opinion and then suggest a course of treatment, best to go straight for an investigation.  We all love an investigation!!  2 very kind radiologists scanned my vascular system on a Sunday morning, all normal.  Great, crack on, it'll settled down.
But it didn't settled down. Nothing too drastic but the redness carried on and my arm started to swell. Couldn't complain really, it was the first time my deltoid and bicep on my left had been as big as my right 💪💪
So without being overly concerned I just moaned to various people over Christmas with varying levels of sympathy


Thursday, 5 February 2015

The bobble hat

I'm not finding blogger.com very easy to use. No idea how to put pictures in or where to fill in the story from the start.  Since I've been on about the hair loss side of the chemo I guess that most of you will have guessed where the 'bobblehat4xmas' will have come from!! Yep I did have a bobble hat for Christmas (a very nice one too 3genuines.com) but I wasn't banking on the fact that the swelling I had in my left arm was due to enlarged lymph nodes in my chest.

Hairlarious

Thursday 5 February. My daughter and I share the same sense of humour. Every day when she comes home from school she tugs on my hair and says 'not coming out yet'. Until yesterday when some did come out!!
So do I go straight to the shaved head look which for me will be automatic Bader-meinhoff entry?
Also for me that would bring the whole thing to more of a reality as so far I have lymphoma but also I have all my hair and look really well (in fact a bit over well-nourished, ie fat, thanks steroids!).
A compromise has been reached. Haircut a bit shorter than usual (handsome I know) but it's all coming off if big clumps start falling out. Bader-Meinhoff has got to be a better look than chemo head

Toxic waste

Having been in a profession where I must write the date about 20 times a day, dates have now gone out of the window. I do know that it's Day 1 Chemo. That means 30 tablets for breakfast, not sure how that works out on a 5:2 diet!!
Connected up now to my R-CHOP infusion. it comes covered in black bags and the doxorubicin is bright red so it really looks toxic and like it should kill things!!! Hopefully not me!!